march forth in madness

the past few weeks have been emotionally draining, telling, and often just plain sad. on top of a bit of an emotional break-down due to weeks of zero energy (thanks to a long-lasting Common Cold... blahhh... i know that sounds lame):

1. i finally ended a relationship that has been gasping for breath/death for quite some time. its end was quite immature and shallow, but that's no surprise, considering... . it's kind of a relief to be done with something that seemed so fake and unwanted for such a long time. but i also feel a little disturbed considering a dream i had about her shortly thereafter... a very violent and demented dream. i woke up telling myself that i could never tell anyone about the dream, it was was THAT horrible. --zipped lips--

2. my dad turned 59, which is a little bit startling

3. the Japanese earthquake/radiation scare (speaks for itself)

4. and an old high school friend left this earth. Kenny had a fatal heart attack at the age of 30. he was always an easy-going, funny, and positive person and friend. something like this is always a shock. sad, to say the least.


The moon is beautiful tonight and the sky sparks with lightning and raindrops. eerily romantic. eerily sad.